My 心事
I have a lot of thoughts that I try to keep hidden from others. I know that it’s not healthy to keep them inside, but I can’t help how I feel. I often feel like I’m in a constant state of stress, and I don’t know how to cope with it.
One of the things that keeps me up at night is the thought of what might happen if I fail. I know that failure is a natural part of the learning process, but it still feels like a threat to me. I worry about how my family and friends will react if I don’t make it through this project or that competition.
Another thing that keeps me up at night is the fear of being alone. I’ve been in a relationship for a long time, and I still can’t shake the feeling that I’ll never be able to find someone who understands me the way I understand them. I worry about what the future holds without him, and I fear that I’ll never be able to find someone who can love me the way I love them.
I also worry about my health. I’ve been feeling tired and stressed all the time, and I don’t know if it’s because of the project or something else. I’m trying to take care of myself by getting enough sleep, eating well, and exercising, but it’s not always easy.
I know that these thoughts are not productive, and I try to push them away. I know that I need to focus on what I can control, and that I need to try to find ways to be happy and healthy. But it’s hard not to feel like there’s something missing, something that I just can’t seem to find.
