I can’t help but feel tears streaming down my face. I don’t know what to do, or how to feel, or why I’m here. I just want to go home.
I’ve been here for a while. I’ve been through so much. I’ve lost so many things that I love, and I’ve been through so much pain that I’ve become who I used to be. I’m not the same person I was before.
I remember when I first started coming here. I thought it would be like a避难所， a place where I could escape from the world and be free. But now, I realize that it’s not working out that way. I’m still trying to find my way back home, but I don’t know where it is.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to trust anyone again. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to love again. I don’t know if I’ll ever be happy again. I just want to go home and be with the people I love, and be free from the pain and the memories.
But I can’t do that. I have to坚强 up and keep going. I have to try to make the best of a bad situation, and hope that one day, I’ll be able to find my way back home.
